Good -> Still here
Fine -> Trying not to fall apart
Okay -> Wishing I could cry
Don't worry -> You should be scared
Nothing's wrong -> Everything's wrong
I need a hug -> Hold me, I'm breaking
Never mind -> Ask me later
Not now -> Too much at the moment
Don't ask -> I want to tell you, but can't
I don't want to cry -> I need to cry, but want to look strong
Go away -> Don't let me go


A dictionary of the most common contradictory phrases and their true meanings, when accompanied by a certain tone of voice.
Anyone have more? I'll add them.

Today was eventful, from start to finish. I really wish it hadn't ended the way it did, for everyone, not just me, but if wishes were horses, beggars would ride.
But wishes are not, and I'm no beggar. I'm way too proud, which gets me in trouble sometimes. I hate accepting help, even when I need it more than ever.

To Bree and Tilli, hope you guys managed to smile once or twice and are feeling at least a little better.
To Ruby and anyone else who wondered what in the name of everything holy was going on today, I'm sorry. No explanations are forthcoming, but lets just say I wish I didn't have an explanation either, let alone the need for one.


Oh yes, and I am Bree's Bitch. I am kept on a chain and obey almost every command (I drew the line at pissing on a pole in order to claim it).

And my dad, charming man that he is, deleted MSN. Again. I'll wait a month or so then download the newest version.
I'm hiding at Kelly's but Dad will pick me up on the way home and chuck a schiz at me, I'll bet.




Current favourite piece of poetry:
There's little in taking or giving
There's little in water or wine
This living, this living, this living
Was never a project of mine
Yes, I do love Dorothy Parker

What did one spider say to the other?
BANANA!
Do you get it?
because I didn't.